~*~ Clomid ~*~ The Rules ~*~

The Rules!!!


1. Under no circumstances make any important decisions whilst riding the clomid rollercoaster, minstrels versus malteasers should be the biggest decision you should allow yourself to make.

2. Whilst riding this rollercoaster, please keep your hands and feet to yourself, persons found to be punching or kicking others will be asked to leave the theme park by the management.

3. Height restrictions apply. All persons on rollercoaster must be tall enough to reach the choccie biccie tin that your dh may have inadvertantly placed on a high shelf.

4.PLease secure any loose clothing, jewellery or eyewear, as flying into the "clomid rage" part of the ride may cause these to become loose or to fall and the management accepts no responsibility to any damage to personal possesions.

5. Do not operate any machinary whilst partaking of the clomid experience, any tractor/forklift/road rage is not the responsibility of the management

6.Prior to entering this ride, the management recommends all dvd's such as pretty woman, city of angels, pay it forward, and/or any other tear inducing material be removed from your possesion for the duration of the ride.

7. Coldplay/the smiths cd's are strictly prohibited, as are all other musical artists who fall under the genre "music to self harm to".

8.Your husband doesnt understand you now, nor will he understand you whilst on the clomid rollercoaster.Don't expect him to. Always remember, the day a man understands a woman........ we've lost!

9.Men do not find the sight of a positive ovulation predictor pee stick arousing, waving it in his face whilst shouting " get ur kit off i need your love juice!" is not a recognised form of foreplay.

10.This is a scary ride, be brave it won't last forever!!!!

FINALLY!!!

It has finally happened! After 70 long days of waiting and crying and taking progesterone and dang near pulling my hair out AF has finally arrived! I am finally on to a new cycle. My first cycle using Clomid!!!

I had some cramping and spotting Saturday night at work. Not much but enough to get my hopes up. I was bummed when I woke up Sunday morning. The cramps and spotting had stopped. UGH! I was so mad. But as soon as I got up and started moving around the cramps started again. They have not been to bad. But they are enough to get the ball rolling. I spotted all afternoon Saturday and finally started bleeding after dinner.

I am feeling a lot better now. I was getting so frustrated and feeling very down. My spirits have definitely been lifted. I can't believe I get to start the Clomid on Tuesday! I have waited for so long or this. I am excited and nervous. Right around the time I should hopefully ovulate with the Clomid Bryan will be gone with my mother for a few days and then at his bio-dad's for a few more. So hopefully Ethan and I will have lots and lots of alone time to nooky it up and God willing make a baby!!! Wish us luck!

Run Free!!!

So this morning I took down one of the panels on the chicken fence. A few of the chicks/ducklings had figured out how to get up and over and out yesterday but were unable to figure out how to get back in. I was able to herd them into the barn with the big chickens last night but not back into the chicken coop. So I decided it was time to set the little buggers free. Let them explore. I am sure they are pretty well homesteaded by now and will know where to come back to at night. Well the ducks took off for the pasture and barely looked back. The chicks how ever came out a few feet. Then they ran back in. Then they came back out and came across the driveway where I was sitting in a chair watching them. Then they went back in. Then they came back out and all 6 chicks stood at my feet looking up at me like "Now what?". HA HA HA Sorry boys and girls you are on your own. The ducks are back. I just heard their laughing ... I mean quacking outside the window. Why does it sound like they are laughing at me when they quack? Here are a few pics so you can see how big they have all gotten.

A couple before and after shots.

The ghosts are getting creative.

I think most people are well aware of the ghosts in my house. Most every one will admit to a creepy feeling here or there through out our house. I flat out refuse to go into the basement at night. Mainly because the dogs flat out refuse to come down with me. If they don't wanna go down there then it can't be good.

Well our dear little ghosties have gotten creative now. They are building pop can pyramids!


I don't know how it got there or why. It is in the very back of the basement in the farthest room. The old furnace and fuel tank are back there. We have a newer corn burning furnace now. So we are very rarely in that room. They hubby went back there yesterday to change the filters because the newer furnace still filters air through there. That was what he found. We have no idea who did it or when. No one wants to claim responsibility. It sure as poo was not me cause I don't go in that room unless I absolutely MUST go back there. Like to take that picture. There is just something about an old stone walled basement that is creepy as SIN!

My First Harvest

My first harvest from my garden was a success! I had 3 big bags full!


Nummy organic radishes.


Big green organic spinach.


I pulled a carrot. But as you can see they are not ready to be picked yet. It still tasted good even if it is tiny.


I can't wait to pick more!

Ducklings and Chicks

They grow up so fast! The ducklings and chicks have been with us for almost 2 months now. They went from small and fuzzy to medium and feathery. And LOUD! OY can those ducks quack now! They mean buisness and have no problems letting you know that. So here are a few pics I took this morning of them. See how they have grown ...

AF Update

I wish there was more to update about in this update. UGH! I am now 4 days post progesterone. I have been cramping off and on. Just when I start to feel like the cramps mean buisness and AF is about to begin the cramps just ... DISAPPEAR ... it is very frustrating. I hate cramps but if it gets the job done then DO IT!

I of course am still very frustrated. I am tired and worn down. I want my body to just let it go. I want to move on to the next step of this crazy infertility ladder. That is hard to do when your body refuses to cooperate. It is very tiring.

I will just have to keep praying and waiting. It's all I can really do right now. OK God we are ready. Next step please. I KNOW that it will happen when it is suppose to. I KNOW that God will provide a healthy child for us some day. I have faith in that and in God. But sometimes it is hard to be patient. I know that he is listening and telling me just to BREATH because it will come. I just hope my version of soon and God's version of soon are at least some what the same.

Fingers crossed and legs wide open!

Happy Birthday!

Today was my MIL's birthday. We got a very lovely cake with pink roses on it. We had them write Happy Birthday and her name on it. She seemed very happy when I dropped the cake, cards and Bryan off today before heading to work. I am glad it made her happy. I was so touched when she got me a birthday cake for my birthday when no one else did. We have been getting alone wonderfully lately. I really enjoy my time chatting with her now. She understands a lot of the stressers in my life right now and doesn't mind talking to me about it. It is making for a very wonderful relationship between us. I am grateful for that more and more every day. I am glad I can be one of those ladies who actually gets alone with her MIL.

TAP TAP TAP ... any time now ...

I am very patiently ... he he he ... ya right patiently waiting for my period to come. I was given 10 days of progesterone to force a period. The last pill was Thursday. Last time I took this med for this very same job it took 3 days after the last pill for AF to show. However that was the 5 day treatment. And they say it could take up to 2 weeks for AF to come. And it is not a garuntee that you will get your period. *sigh* I hate waiting and even more I hate not being able to plan things. We are going on vacation soon. I hope we will not have to attempt to concieve our first child together with his/her big brother asleep in the hotel room while we take a "shower" ... kinda creepy but I am not wasting a round of Clomid. I will get that boy his own good gosh darn room if need be!!!! LOL So we wait ... again ... some more ... *sigh* ... if nothing else I am getting a HUGE lesson in patience from God when it comes to having another child. OK God ... I think 3 years is good. Let's get on with the show now please! Thank you ... come again ...

Exhuasting

I am not gonna go into much detail. I am just tired and frustrated and just emotionally worn down. Why when you just want to be left alone every one jumps all over you? And when you don't wanna play along they make you out to be the bad guy? I need my piece and quit so I can rest and relax and heal. I just wanna be left alone.

Graduation time!

My boy is getting old! Which makes me old. Never mind! He is still YOUNG! Young I tell you! LOL OK so he is getting older. Bryan had his 5th grade graduation today. Tomorrow is his last day of elementary school. They had a wonderful ceremony for the kids. Bryan even had to sing.

Congrats to the Riverside students!


He accepted his certificate from his teacher.


Bryan with his certificate.


Bryan with his 5th grade and favorite teacher.

She really has been wonderful. I love all the potential she sees in Bryan and how wonderfully she expresses it.

I admit ... I cried. My boy is putting a big chunk of his life behind him. It is hard to believe. It went so fast. I wonder if the next 10 years will go by this quickly? Probably faster. I am going to be a blubbering mess by the time his high school graduation rolls around!!!

cramps ... cramps and ... well nothing else

I have cramps hardcore today. I am hoping that it is for a good reason. I hope my period comes today. I mean really? Cramps are so not worth the pain if there is no period. I am so tired of this waiting game. I just want to get my period and start the clomid. It is hard to sit back and let nature take it's course. Maybe I should call my RE and ask for something to jump start AF. I don't know. I don't know what I should do or what the right answer is. That is one of the hardest parts of infertility. You have no idea what is the right answer or what is going to get you pregnant. Fingers crossed and legs wide open. LOL Other then that and prayer I don't know how else to get through all of this. *sigh* I hope I get some kind of answer soon.